Oct 11th, 2005 by Jesse Moore
I'm writing this in my office, with other agents on each side of me. I have my Bose headphones on, which makes typing in this environment a little surreal. With noise-reducing headphones Kanye West is flowing without interruption, even though people are talking on each side of me and I'm typing with fervor on my keyboard. This is my plastic bubble, my sensory-blocking hallucinogen.
Business is going well (knock on wood), so thanks to those that have said a word for me from time to time. My team leader said that she thinks that this business attracts people with addictive personalities - and I think that there might be something to that. With such spikes in production and emotions, the ride to a high can last awhile if you've been bouncing along the bottom (not that I have been necessarily - I'm taking some license for the purposes of the analogy).
Faith can be addicting too. The whole "birds of the field" thing has an entirely new application for me - awaking each day a little hungry, not knowing what the fields before me will yield, but knowing at the same time that I haven't seen birds fall from the sky because of malnourishment. In fact, as I sit here thinking about it, I'm oddly grateful that I don't have a regular paycheck on a regular payday...
In the hunter-gatherer history of the world, seasons were expected, and thus prepared for. In it's design this model seems to foster a dependence on God. In a nation that spends $1.25 for every $1.00 it earns, a regular paycheck may have shifted our dependence on God to a dependence on the calendar. In that sense, by not having a scheduled payday, this renewed dependence on God actually makes it easier for me to...well, trust Him.
Deep thoughts. Even as I say this, I have to say that my optimism is buoyed in large part to the good job my wife holds that pays her on a regular basis. Baby steps people, baby steps.
Business is going well (knock on wood), so thanks to those that have said a word for me from time to time. My team leader said that she thinks that this business attracts people with addictive personalities - and I think that there might be something to that. With such spikes in production and emotions, the ride to a high can last awhile if you've been bouncing along the bottom (not that I have been necessarily - I'm taking some license for the purposes of the analogy).
Faith can be addicting too. The whole "birds of the field" thing has an entirely new application for me - awaking each day a little hungry, not knowing what the fields before me will yield, but knowing at the same time that I haven't seen birds fall from the sky because of malnourishment. In fact, as I sit here thinking about it, I'm oddly grateful that I don't have a regular paycheck on a regular payday...
In the hunter-gatherer history of the world, seasons were expected, and thus prepared for. In it's design this model seems to foster a dependence on God. In a nation that spends $1.25 for every $1.00 it earns, a regular paycheck may have shifted our dependence on God to a dependence on the calendar. In that sense, by not having a scheduled payday, this renewed dependence on God actually makes it easier for me to...well, trust Him.
Deep thoughts. Even as I say this, I have to say that my optimism is buoyed in large part to the good job my wife holds that pays her on a regular basis. Baby steps people, baby steps.
Jesse, Your words really resonated with me. I’ve felt trapped many times while during my career at a public agency and you’ve just described why…the dependence on the calendar instead of the truth. Your clarity and perspective is refreshing!