Nov 1st, 2005 by Jesse Moore
It's soooo dark out, and it's only 5pm. I know because I'm sitting in it, the only illumination coming from my laptop screen. I'm listening to Jessie Baylin on MySpace.com - in fact, if you turn all of your lights off and click HERE you'll get an idea of what our house looks like :)
I've been wanting to write about how uninspired I've felt lately, but that seemed like a defeatist thing to do, so instead I've been trying to inspire myself, which is altogether harder than it seems it should be. I can't tell you how many blog posts I've started and not finished (I can only hope that I can see this one to fruition). We haven't been spending as much time with friends, partly because of my job (which requires me to work alot of nights and weekends) and partly because we're gestationally challenged. Actually, it's not that we don't have kids, it's that all of our friends do, which I never really minded (and rather enjoyed), but every once in awhile we're forced to remember that spontaneity was easier when we didn't have to consider afternoon naps or haul around a diaper bag. Our friends are generally good about not forgetting us, but as they move from one diaper dandy to two - well, sanity takes priority.
I've moved on to Brandi Carlile now (click HERE, then on "Fall Apart Again" - great song). I think that Kami just got home - she's been working 10+ hours pretty consistently, and since I joke that I can't remember the last time I set my alarm clock, I better go give her a hug and talk about the ways that I can make her evening relaxing.
I've been wanting to write about how uninspired I've felt lately, but that seemed like a defeatist thing to do, so instead I've been trying to inspire myself, which is altogether harder than it seems it should be. I can't tell you how many blog posts I've started and not finished (I can only hope that I can see this one to fruition). We haven't been spending as much time with friends, partly because of my job (which requires me to work alot of nights and weekends) and partly because we're gestationally challenged. Actually, it's not that we don't have kids, it's that all of our friends do, which I never really minded (and rather enjoyed), but every once in awhile we're forced to remember that spontaneity was easier when we didn't have to consider afternoon naps or haul around a diaper bag. Our friends are generally good about not forgetting us, but as they move from one diaper dandy to two - well, sanity takes priority.
I've moved on to Brandi Carlile now (click HERE, then on "Fall Apart Again" - great song). I think that Kami just got home - she's been working 10+ hours pretty consistently, and since I joke that I can't remember the last time I set my alarm clock, I better go give her a hug and talk about the ways that I can make her evening relaxing.
Ahhhh…”spontaneity”–Just wait until you hit the age where your friends “themselves” begin opting for that afternoon nap! (smile)
And the diaper bag of that looming scenario?? Yikes…can’t even let my mind “go there”.
Life is just sooo funny sometimes!
How about when you used to be able to come over and watch “The Office” and other shows we used to watch, like CSI and Tred Barta…
And now we have “Elmo” on with a “Repeat All” on the DVD player with the latest request from Tia being for “Bg Br” that means Big Bird in a 21mo old speak.
Oh the good times!
Actually it is a lot of fun seeing Tia dance to the different songs and get so excited when the show comes on. Its worth the pain of hearing Elmo’s voice.
Come on over and we can have a beer and watch Elmo.
Hey we have a kid and a diaper bag. I think Kim and I are very spontaneous.
So here is the solution. Be spontaneous. I am sure you have nothing planned tonight, so drive around until you do something. Kim and I are going out to dinner tonight. Do you want to come?
Marty
I was waiting for your comment Marty – you guys are definately the exception to the rule. And the intent of my post is not to express a lack of spontaneity, but that we’re reminded on a more consistent basis that things change, and spontaneity is just one aspect of that.
Why are you so sure that we don’t have something planned tonight?! It’s poker night with the guys – something I haven’t been able to do in a long time, and I’m looking forward to it.
“i’ve been wanting to write about how uninspired I’ve felt lately, but that seemed like a defeatist thing to do, so instead I’ve been trying to inspire myself.”
i’m going through something similar – I’m trying to write “upbeat” music, but everything keeps coming out the other way.
i’m trying to turn my eyes towards the hope of what may be, than dwelling on the past or the even the now
and it’s hard to do
baby steps
Allen – my dad’s a writer, and as a mentor teaching a student, one of his main tenets is that it’s important for Christian artists to draw from the “light,” not from the dark. His main point with this is that it’s altogether too easy to make your audience feel pain, loneliness, anger, etc. It’s much more challenging to create something that illicits joy, happiness, and love. So in the interest of constantly bettering ourselves, his instruction was to (as you say) “turn [your] eyes towards the hope of what may be…”
Anyway, I applaud your efforts. Keep it up.
Concerning meeting Kami at the door:
This is something your father does on most days
(which are now nights) when I come home.
I tell him often what a great delight and blessing
it is to my heart to see him standing in the light
as I leave the cares of a busy day in the ER on the
path from the garage to the house.
See you soon,
Mom